Post by hereticalmudvaynin on Sept 30, 2009 0:00:37 GMT -5
Hey fellow Mudvaynians,
Wow I don't even know where to begin. So much change.
I guess I can start with my family.
My son, Asher, was born on Feb 10th, weighing in at 9lbs. and change.
I stayed with my whole through the whole process, her BP shot up to almost 200 over 190, I thought one more push and she was stroking out. Scared me within an inch of my life, but delivery went fine, couldn't cut the umbilical cuz I was trembling too much.
Spent 9 days in the NICU, after those 9 long days, he came home, stayed home for some months, had to pull another stint in the hospital for a cold. Since then he has been home, now going on 8 months, over 20 lbs, pushing 30 really. over a foot and a half tall. Just got his first 2 teeth to break thru the gum. Growing like a weed he is.
The wife is doing good, right now she is giving Asher a bottle. The marriage is doing great. I couldn't ask for a better wife and mother for my child.
More funerals, wife's cousin's husband and a relative on my father's side.
Went through a spiritual downturn, sometime after Asher was born, I became more worried about dying, afterlife and God in general.
Dying, i.e. am I gonna die and leave Asher and Jen with nothing, Afterlife i.e. wondering if there was one, did extensive research into NDEs, ADCs (After Death Communications), and so on, became a lil obsessed with it. As far as God goes, I almost went to atheism. I had questions about God, religion, and Jesus and everything. Didn't feel like I would ever find the answers. So, I almost did, meaning I cried like a baby, because I couldn't stand the thought of thinking there was no God, and Christianity was a lie. After much thinking, reflection, I'm convinced there is a God. I've believe in loving and accepting everyone for who they are, much like what Jesus taught I suppose (haven't made it far into the bible, stuck on Genesis I'm afraid).
I don't edit videos that much anymore, haven't in sometime, and don't see it happening in the near future. I know that people here as well on YouTube and friends like my vids, I think I wanna make something more original, then being stuck re-editing someone else's work. I'm proud of the videos I have put together, but, I'm a artist, as well as a perfectionist at heart, so I pretty much stopped video editing all together.
I'm now working with photoshop, creating original images, as a matter of a fact, a friend of mine is starting his own custom motorcycle shop, he and his wife asked me to help design and create the logo for the shop. I was honored to do so. I have created a graffiti pic with a biblical qoute.
I also haven't wrote in some time either. But, I still know where all my poems and lyrics are. I'm looking to get back into drawing. So yeah, my creativity has many outputs to choose from, question is, which one?
Still unemployed, held a job briefly, quit, didn't agree with the companies' ethics. Since then I have been doing auto body repair on dump trucks for my dad's boss. Last time made about 200 bucks. Couldn't beat it, made it last 4 days, 3 nights of vacation.
That's about it, sorry about the long entry, longer than intended really.
Happy to be back,
-Josh (hereticalmudvaynin)
Wow I don't even know where to begin. So much change.
I guess I can start with my family.
My son, Asher, was born on Feb 10th, weighing in at 9lbs. and change.
I stayed with my whole through the whole process, her BP shot up to almost 200 over 190, I thought one more push and she was stroking out. Scared me within an inch of my life, but delivery went fine, couldn't cut the umbilical cuz I was trembling too much.
Spent 9 days in the NICU, after those 9 long days, he came home, stayed home for some months, had to pull another stint in the hospital for a cold. Since then he has been home, now going on 8 months, over 20 lbs, pushing 30 really. over a foot and a half tall. Just got his first 2 teeth to break thru the gum. Growing like a weed he is.
The wife is doing good, right now she is giving Asher a bottle. The marriage is doing great. I couldn't ask for a better wife and mother for my child.
More funerals, wife's cousin's husband and a relative on my father's side.
Went through a spiritual downturn, sometime after Asher was born, I became more worried about dying, afterlife and God in general.
Dying, i.e. am I gonna die and leave Asher and Jen with nothing, Afterlife i.e. wondering if there was one, did extensive research into NDEs, ADCs (After Death Communications), and so on, became a lil obsessed with it. As far as God goes, I almost went to atheism. I had questions about God, religion, and Jesus and everything. Didn't feel like I would ever find the answers. So, I almost did, meaning I cried like a baby, because I couldn't stand the thought of thinking there was no God, and Christianity was a lie. After much thinking, reflection, I'm convinced there is a God. I've believe in loving and accepting everyone for who they are, much like what Jesus taught I suppose (haven't made it far into the bible, stuck on Genesis I'm afraid).
I don't edit videos that much anymore, haven't in sometime, and don't see it happening in the near future. I know that people here as well on YouTube and friends like my vids, I think I wanna make something more original, then being stuck re-editing someone else's work. I'm proud of the videos I have put together, but, I'm a artist, as well as a perfectionist at heart, so I pretty much stopped video editing all together.
I'm now working with photoshop, creating original images, as a matter of a fact, a friend of mine is starting his own custom motorcycle shop, he and his wife asked me to help design and create the logo for the shop. I was honored to do so. I have created a graffiti pic with a biblical qoute.
I also haven't wrote in some time either. But, I still know where all my poems and lyrics are. I'm looking to get back into drawing. So yeah, my creativity has many outputs to choose from, question is, which one?
Still unemployed, held a job briefly, quit, didn't agree with the companies' ethics. Since then I have been doing auto body repair on dump trucks for my dad's boss. Last time made about 200 bucks. Couldn't beat it, made it last 4 days, 3 nights of vacation.
That's about it, sorry about the long entry, longer than intended really.
Happy to be back,
-Josh (hereticalmudvaynin)
